Grief & Loss

My husband of 45 years died after just a 3 week hospital stay of AML.  He had been healthy our entire married life except for the summer before when he contracted Lyme's disease.  Maybe that disguised his fatigue he must have been feeling shortly before we went to the hospital for shortness of breath.  Anyway, he and I never thought he wouldn't be returning home from that hospital stay.  So lots of tears, lonely days and nights and all the rest.  Unbelievably, two of my three adult children are getting married in 2026. We are all over the place with happy and sad emotions - my daughter won't have her Dad to walk her down the aisle.  I'll be by myself thru all the social events that are part of each wedding instead of having my husband by my side. I just changed my primary AARP membership from his name to mine which led me here. My faith tells me I'll see him again but its a hard road to travel as a widow.  

Husband, Jim, died in July.  He was here at home and was able to be at home until his death.  I was the sole caregiver and was the one who provided meds and care.  Right now I'm having memories of his dying time, which was two days of difficult breathing, heart rate changes, and deepening coma.  He did not have any pain, but his dying time was not peaceful.  He was not in pain, but I was.   And while I can talk about him and our time together, 45 years, I really need to talk about his dying time, and the time after his death, when I wrote the obituary, made cremation arrangements and drove myself to pick up the ashes.  There is no one who wants to hear that story.  And I need someone to hear, and I need to tell it. He did have 3 adult children, but they "wanted to give me  space" and did not contact me.   I feel like I am just going down that spiral, and not sure what will happen.

Just thought I would share this - CBS Local News: 12/18/2025 - Downtown wind phone helps grieving Atlantans connect with lost loved ones  The 3 minute CBS local news video is on the right side of the news page.Touching.  

20 years ago this year one of my best friends who became my bro-in-law left us. He experienced a "stroke" and was on life support for a few days. During very terrible and terrifying conversations with Sis, she advised they had NEVER spoken about end-of-life nor options; she chose to leave that decision to his Dad (a person in his 70s)... Based on my own personal experiences and this, I hope everyone will start opening up about these issues. After all of this, imo, leaving questions is not kind nor is not discussing with those who matter. The point of my post is please everyone think about what matters "after". Please don't cause undue stress or mourning on anyone if you can. There are multiple legitimate societies and websites who can guide the process before and following. As an example, 20 years ago I chose organ donation, medical research, cremation, "green" internment. These are witnessed documents which are somewhat like the will "rich" people have. P

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Is anyone else out there waiting for this day to be over?

Hi, im Emma.   I was married for 50 years.  But in year 2023, he passed away.  He was 15 years older which worked for me in the beginning because he was like a father to me. This relationship allowed me to finish college while he instantly took the role as stepfather of my 3 daughters with ease and care.  We got along fine navigating my life style and his as well.  But dementia set in and he became bitter and argumentative.  I prayed so many prayers to stop his cruelty and to see me as his wife.  He saw me as an  enemy instead. My prayers were intentional and direct to God that he'd give me peace and not sickness.  Today, I am living in that peace and comfort.  Praying faithfully has cause less tension on the trials of life and have given me more time to take care of me.  

I don't have any human kids. My pets are my kids.  They mean the world to me.  My young cat, Stevie, was diagnosed with a rare ear canal cancer on July 12, 2018 and passed away just three weeks later on August 2, 2018.  I think it was already at the advanced stage by the time he was diagnosed. It was incredibly sad to see him decline in the later stage of his cancer. The vet had thought he just had a stubborn ear infection for the previous six months.  Many trips to the vet, many different medications and two surgeries couldn't save my precious boy.  He was such a bright light in my life.  He was born into a bad hoarding situation and had a very rough beginning, mentally and physically until he was rescued and taken to a shelter where I met him.  In the five short years I knew him, I loved him dearly and took really good care of him.  He was the one who always followed me around, grunted when he approached me, laid on my lap, came to be

How are all you doing? It's so encouraging to see your efforts. I think acknowledging and expressing grief is progress in itself. One foot in front of the other, works. Backsliding is fine. Wherever you are in the grief journey is okay. Take care!   

Today I realized that while I need to move forward, every step forward feels like a step away from my husband.  So taking care of necessary things, like changing bank accounts, arranging a cremation plot, even getting health care for myself,  feels like another letting go.  And I wonder if this is normal.  

@SummerOnTheWay1 HAPPY BIRTHDAY,  NICOLE. Just wanted to take a moment to say Happy Birthday because you do such a great job on this forum board and also keeping us all informed of AARP advocacies and classes under whatever topic. Hope the coming year is your best year yet. Best WishesGail1

 My real parents were killed out of the military and a substitute was placed in their place .  They were 109%vested and then they used my blood as resources and are holding my education and work.  As of yet they have not returned my work or education.   

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I worked in DC when it happened.  We had people from our organization  killed on one of the planes.  Trying to make a mad rush on the subway was surreal with crowds of panicked people.  The fire and smoke in the subway through the DC area could be seen and smelled underground.  People so frantic they didn’t realize fares were waved, trying to add a fare amount to their subway cards.    Before our company told us to go home we all saw the towers get hit on a nearby office TV.  Then we saw what we thought was the Pentagon.  We all thought DC was going to be next, and our department head went down the halls telling everyone to go home now.  She didn’t wait for the CEO to announce.  The streets, buses ,subway were filled with panicked people.  What was going on? Today, and always I remember those lost, those people trying to save the ones in the towers, at the pentagon and in Pennsylvania.  Everything, everyone chan

@SummerOnTheWay1. Hey there my sister. I know that it's been a very long time since I have replied or posted and my title is not trying to sound like the song by Staind but hey, if the shoe fits.. I'm truly sorry for not checking in sooner. We are doing well. Our mascot was 2 in June and weighed 50 lbs. The vet said that he is one of the longest they've seen. His Sataness is calming down, LOL, and he is still as loveable as always. Blu turned 9 and our Munchkin is now 3. I've started PT for a 2nd time to try to help with the weak muscles and balance issues. I just started this week so I know that I have to give it time. We took our annual vacation to the ocean and it was beautiful. I also finally found the courage to walk down to the water at night and said goodbye to my husband. It was emotional and painful but I knew in my heart that it was time. My daughter has started her last 2 semesters of her Master's degree. They will be married a year already in October. I have asked her to se

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Hi everyone, I hope it’s okay for me to post here.I’m not from the U.S., but I’ve always admired how strong and open-hearted many Americans are, especially when going through grief or change.Sometimes life feels quiet and heavy, and I’ve realized how healing it is just to talk with someone who understands. I would love to listen, to learn, and to connect with anyone who feels like sharing.No pressure. Just sending warm thoughts, and an open heart 💛

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Once you have lost a loved one, it takes a while to get around to all those chores that one has to do at sometime or another.  So when and how did you handle the cleaning out of the personal effects of your deceased loved one?  Did you ask someone to help you?  Did anybody offer to help you when you were ready? Hardest thing I have ever had to do - took a while to get started; maybe a year.  My nephew helped me tremendously - he was about the same size as my husband so he took a lot of the nicer clothes and hats.  I still see a shirt that is familiar every once and awhile - that’s been almost 20 years ago; yep, the nephew takes care of things he really likes. I saved some really special things like one of the hats that he wore often and looked so great in - I made an acid free box and used acid free tissue paper to wrap it - last I looked at it, it was still like new.  I had tried preserving my brother’s high top tennis shoes that we bought him i

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@SummerOnTheWay1 Hey sister. I need some advice. I was invited to a bull roast with my neighbors on Saturday the 17th. I decided that I am going to go. I need time to myself and to also get to talk and hangout with others. This will be the first time that I will be going out without any family. I feel like I am taking that first step in acceptance and ready to go forward. I'm not looking for a date or a boyfriend but it would be nice to have a companion to hang out with. If something else develops I'll take it as it goes. I'm just nervous about it because this is a big step in my progress. Do you think that I am doing the right thing? I feel like I am but, I am also worried about what others would think.

@SummerOnTheWay1 .I know that I haven't posted in a while and I'm sorry for that. I've been been busy with a lot of things. I got Covid about a month ago and felt like death. Then I gave it to my son and my Mom. I've also been running around between appointments and errands. Good news is that my disability was APPROVED. Between me and my son's survivor benefits we will be okay. I just have to play catch up for a while. I've been processing my grief and I am almost at acceptance. He's gone and I accept that but I still get angry. I have been able to remember the good and smile and even laugh. So, our boy will be 2 June 16th. He had a vet appointment Thursday. He is whole,  hearty and healthy. He weighs 50 pounds. Here's an updated picture of him in his favorite position. Love you much my sister.  

Where can I get help with my immense grief at losing my spouse of 48 years