Lost my Dad

   I lost my Father last year and I miss him, but it is complicated. He was 88 years old and died from some kind of infection in a hospital. Unfortunately due to timing and distance I was not able to be there when it happened. It was the same with my mother as far as not being able to see here pass. I know that in his own way that my father loved me. He was a good provider and he took care of what needed to be taken care of. He taught me a lot of life lessons along the way. My dad was quite frugal so we did not go things like ball games, but we did go fishing and camping. I loved my father but we he was not one to show affection toward his children which I am pretty sure he got from his father who was somewhat more strict than my father was. He had anger issues apparently because his father did  not show him much love. I know that I cant blame my father for being how he was because it was what his father showed him. He was kinder than my Grandfather. My father has 3 sisters and the oldest one once told me that even she to had to deal with my grandfather not showing love and compassion to his children. I loved my father but there was no hugging or praise or anything normal that you would expect from a parent to a child. It was very rare for him to say he was proud of any of us. My issue is trying to deal with his death and at the same time getting past how we were treated as children. Even my mother who showed some affection seemed like she at times was not happy having to deal with her children. So I am hoping someone will have some perspective on how to move on from my frustration with my parents now  that  the are both  gone. One of my sisters passed when I was a teenager, she was 3 years old so she was gone a long time ago. My other sister is 4 years older than me and we have had a few discussions about our father and I now understand better that it was not much better for her than it was for me. Any feedback on my situation would be appreciated. Thank you.