Early anxiety?

I think so. Since your life is completely different from before, when she was alive and with you, everything is new, decisions rest on you and not on you both. Worry, fear, it’s all part of the process. What calms you? reassures you? What are the biggest obstacles? Social occasions? Financial decisions? 

Thank-you. You are right on the money. I'm a Type A and still work part time. Yes, one foot in front of the other and one breathe at a time. Hoping "it" gets less over time. Also have a counselor, medications, and signed up for a support group that starts after the holidays. 

For me, ​@RoryM42380  when I’ve gone through this,  it was anxiety due to the responsibilities of handling all that is involved with a loved one’s death.  And too, the aftermath of things that domino from other things in dealing with all of those responsibilities.  For me, the chance to grieve HAD to take a back seat.
 

    At times it was a helpful diversion, but at other times it created more anxiety.  Because the necessity to move forward in taking on these responsibilities was paramount, I had to put aside the grief temporarily to have a level head in dealing with the responsibility part.  I guess it’s the “Fight or Flight” response that bubbled up in my situation, but Type A personality was existing already. lol! 😀  It’s also the anxiety of the unknown… and how to take care of things. 
 

Getting through it will have ups and downs, bumps and dips, and even curve balls.   One foot in front of the other.  👍