Loss of Husband 7 months ago

[jf7747659]

My husband of 45 years died after just a 3 week hospital stay of AML.  He had been healthy our entire married life except for the summer before when he contracted Lyme's disease.  Maybe that disguised his fatigue he must have been feeling shortly before we went to the hospital for shortness of breath.  Anyway, he and I never thought he wouldn't be returning home from that hospital stay.  So lots of tears, lonely days and nights and all the rest.  Unbelievably, two of my three adult children are getting married in 2026. We are all over the place with happy and sad emotions - my daughter won't have her Dad to walk her down the aisle.  I'll be by myself thru all the social events that are part of each wedding instead of having my husband by my side. 

I just changed my primary AARP membership from his name to mine which led me here. My faith tells me I'll see him again but its a hard road to travel as a widow.  

[Winter2025VA]

Dear @jf7747659 , I am so sorry for your loss!!!

Our group have experienced loss themselves and are ALWAYS here for you dear friend.

WE also have two very "caring" AARP Experts Amy @agoyer and Jane @JaneCares who have supported our forum over the years. Words can never thank them. They have given me some good TIPS to survive losing my hubbie. I am sending them a copy of your post. I am sure they will stop by.

SO GLAD you stopped by to see us and hope you will stop by again.

Take 1 step at a time.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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@jf7747659 wrote:

My husband of 45 years died after just a 3 week hospital stay of AML.  He had been healthy our entire married life except for the summer before when he contracted Lyme's disease.  Maybe that disguised his fatigue he must have been feeling shortly before we went to the hospital for shortness of breath.  Anyway, he and I never thought he wouldn't be returning home from that hospital stay.  So lots of tears, lonely days and nights and all the rest.  Unbelievably, two of my three adult children are getting married in 2026. We are all over the place with happy and sad emotions - my daughter won't have her Dad to walk her down the aisle.  I'll be by myself thru all the social events that are part of each wedding instead of having my husband by my side. 

I just changed my primary AARP membership from his name to mine which led me here. My faith tells me I'll see him again but its a hard road to travel as a widow.  

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[SereneSeagull]

Hi, and sorry for your hard loss, and the circumstances that led to it.

 The tug-of-war that envelopes your emotions are such a struggle.  I hope you have a large circle of family and friends who can support you.  That pain is so hard. Take care of yourself and lean on them.  Getting your emotions out by writing is helpful to many who grieve, so I’m sure it was hard to do that, but can be very cathartic in going through the myriad of emotions that will swirl around you.  Thank you for your message.