So sorry for your loss. It sounds like you and your dad were incredibly close and it is those surprising little moments that are sometimes the most difficult.Thinking of you as your journey this sadness and am happy you have this supportive community...

To be honest the paperwork is at times harder than the caring.What worked for me is a single, simple, notebook/folder containing all your contacts, meds, logins and appointments in one place, without it would seem impossible to keep track.

It's wise to start planning, though I understand how difficult it is. An elder law attorney is who you need to handle POAs, finances and Medicaid planning as one unit.

Losing a child is a pain that stays with you always. Sometimes after years it feels just a raw.I hope you can find a group that truly understands.

What you wrote is so true, memories have this way of feeling soothing yet painful all at once. It's a strong thing what you are doing, showing up, being introspective and moving on especially when it's difficult.