Litterally. very. very. bored. I am bored at work 85% of the 40 hours per work week. Now before you say I should get a new job, let me tell ya, I make good money. Sooo, if someone wants to pay me a large bit o'coin to sit at a desk and do next to nothing, why should I argue.
I should probably use this time wisely. But I don't. I have to appear to be working. So overtly watching youtube documentaries or learning a new language is difficult. I mostly read newspapers online, look at Pinterest online and play games silently on my phone.
I have 2 female collegues but they are millenials. They are young. In my old life I entered the workforce as a young. I was fresh and smart and respected and I really contributed. But we moved far away and now I feel the same as before but that is not what I see reflected back in the eyes of my coworkers. They look at me the way you looked at your mom when she tried to talk to your friends, back when you were a teen and your mom knew nothing! They patiently wait for me to finish what I have to say and then leave so they can get back to the important conversation they were having. I really don't care though. They are sooooooo, inexperienced. They have no life experiences that make you interesting. The stuff that almost breaks you, the losses, the heartaches, the small victories, the appreciation of each small moment. They have none of it. They are empty shells. Someday they will be interesting women of substance, maybe. I hope so.
So I search the job boards for a help wanted ad that reads: creative, crazy, logical, warm, wonderful, organized, beautiful mess needed to sell sunshine and happiness for a tidy profit. But until then, I reamin bored. So. very. bored.