Help with grief

[TheresaF849375]

I lost my husband of 55 years April 2nd.  I’m lost, he was my everything.  We did everything together.

We have two great adult kids, 3 beautiful granddaughters and a 9 month old great grandson.

They have their lives, which is what we always wanted,…

I just need someone to chat with.  Tell them how wonderful he is,…share memories,…

‘Help me maybe get through another day without him…

[SpringIsHereVA]

👋  Good morning Theresa @TheresaF849375 , any plans for today/tonight?

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , sending LOTS of hugs & luv!!!  💛

[SpringIsHereVA]

How are you Theresa @TheresaF849375 ?  💛

[SpringIsHereVA]

🤗  WE are thinking of YOU! Please Stop By To See Us  🙂

Theresa @TheresaF849375 Here is the link below to our group support group!!!

https://community.aarp.org/t5/Grief-Loss/WE-are-thinking-of-YOU-Please-Stop-By-To-See-Us/m-p/2609839...

[TheresaF849375]

Hi Sweetpea,…rough few days.  Still just so tired.

how are you and mister doing?? ‘
I’ll try to sit and catch up.  I’m still here….💔💔🐈🐈‍⬛

[SpringIsHereVA]

I am SO SORRY you had a few rough days Theresa @TheresaF849375   💛

I am here IF you want to tell me what happened.  NO pressure as usual.

Mister  🐈  & myself are okay, thanks for asking.

Hugs for you, Dalton  🐕  & Circus  🐈.

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote:

Hi Sweetpea,…rough few days.  Still just so tired.

how are you and mister doing?? ‘
I’ll try to sit and catch up.  I’m still here….💔💔🐈🐈‍⬛  ***]

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[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , I am SO SORRY for your loss dear friend!!!  ‌😭‌

I am HERE - talk to me.  ‌💛‌

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

➡️[*** THERESA wrote: I lost my husband of 55 years April 2nd.  I’m lost, he was my everything.  We did everything together.

We have two great adult kids, 3 beautiful granddaughters and a 9 month old great grandson.

They have their lives, which is what we always wanted,…

I just need someone to chat with.  Tell them how wonderful he is,…share memories,…

‘Help me maybe get through another day without him… ***]

[TheresaF849375]

Hi,,,,just sitting here,…I did go to see my new Dr today, she was so sweet.  Have you noticed, the doctors are young enough to be our grandchildren.  Maybe that’s why she was so good with me and my life.  She is referring me to a counselor that works with widows.  She asked me if I was talking to anyone, and I mentioned you, that we chatted and she liked that if we couldn’t sleep, chances were that we were both up to chat.  Thank you for that, and she thought it was really good.

So the light went off, well, that’s good…guess I’ll go see if Dalton wants to make his last trip outside,…have a good restful evening….💔🌼

[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , YES - I am so glad we are chatting!!!  💛

When do you see your counselor? I see my Medicare Doctor on the 27th for Depression Screening. SO GRATEFUL Medicare pays 100 percent.  👍

Hugs for you, Dalton  🐕  & Circus  🐈  from me & Mister  🐈.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote:

Hi,,,,just sitting here,…I did go to see my new Dr today, she was so sweet.  Have you noticed, the doctors are young enough to be our grandchildren.  Maybe that’s why she was so good with me and my life.  She is referring me to a counselor that works with widows.  She asked me if I was talking to anyone, and I mentioned you, that we chatted and she liked that if we couldn’t sleep, chances were that we were both up to chat.  Thank you for that, and she thought it was really good.

So the light went off, well, that’s good…guess I’ll go see if Dalton wants to make his last trip outside,…have a good restful evening….💔🌼  ***]

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[TheresaF849375]

Boy, just seems like I blink and days are gone, yet seems like just yesterday I lost him.

I’m sorry, I am not a very good friend.

Can’t put words together.  I am sorry.  Please don’t give up on me.  Mister Mister wants to stay friends with Circus and Dalton….

[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , you are dealing with ALOT right now dear friend.  💛

And NO, I am NOT giving up on you.

Oh YES, Mister  🐈  is totally excited to have Dalton  🐕  & Circus  🐈  as friends.

I am ALWAYS here when you need to chat.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote:

Boy, just seems like I blink and days are gone, yet seems like just yesterday I lost him.

I’m sorry, I am not a very good friend.

Can’t put words together.  I am sorry.  Please don’t give up on me.  Mister Mister wants to stay friends with Circus and Dalton…. ***]

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[TheresaF849375]

Hi Nicole, went to bed and now back up. Just so very tired.  My granddaughter and our daughter both had their birthdays last week.  I know they are both missing Dan.  So many firsts.

I did get referrals from my new Dr for counseling, I wrote the names down but haven’t researched to see if any one of them will fit my needs.  Does that make sense?  

Well, I just wanted to check on you.  Is your car still running ok?  I hope so.  I’ll chat later.  I really am still having difficulty with finding our last conversation, sorry, my brain is still foggy.  Talk Soon, Theresa💔🐈‍⬛

[SpringIsHereVA]

Yes Theresa @TheresaF849375 , car is doing okay & SO GRATEFUL. Thanks for asking dear friend.  💛

NOT a big deal, you are doing GREAT with trying to function.

ONE 👣  at a time!!!

Sending hugs for you, Dalton  🐕  & Curious  🐈.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote:

Hi Nicole, went to bed and now back up. Just so very tired.  My granddaughter and our daughter both had their birthdays last week.  I know they are both missing Dan.  So many firsts.

I did get referrals from my new Dr for counseling, I wrote the names down but haven’t researched to see if any one of them will fit my needs.  Does that make sense?  

Well, I just wanted to check on you.  Is your car still running ok?  I hope so.  I’ll chat later.  I really am still having difficulty with finding our last conversation, sorry, my brain is still foggy.  Talk Soon, Theresa💔🐈‍⬛ ***]

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[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , are you still taking meds? I hope they are helping!!!

Did you do anything today/tonight?

Hey Dalton  🐕  & Circus  🐈,  I know you are keeping an eye on mom.  

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

[TheresaF849375]

I’m not sure what I’m doing.  I think I responded to an old chat.  How’d your car appt go??  I hope it wasn’t anything too costly.  
How was the rest of your day?  Nothing much here.  Was sunny, and warmed up a bit.  Hope you had a good day…and restful evening.  Well, I guess it’s tomorrow….haveva good Tuesday.  💔💔💕💕💕

[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , I hope you will stop by AGAIN!!!  💛

Losing the luv of your life is VERY TRAUMATIC.  😭

WE have found that talking sometimes helps or escaping into nature.

It will HURT BIG TIME my friend on some days where getting out of bed is impossible.

Or loss of appetite.

What helps me is my cat  🐈  Mister and my precious only child, a daughter.

Do what works for you.

I am here IF you need me.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

[TheresaF849375]

• Thank you, it just seems that people will read the postings, but no one really wants to chat.  Thank you tho,…it does mean a lot to me.  💔

[SpringIsHereVA]

You are welcome Theresa @TheresaF849375 !!!  💛

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote: Thank you, it just seems that people will read the postings, but no one really wants to chat.  Thank you tho,…it does mean a lot to me.  💔  ***]

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[TheresaF849375]

Has it been a long time since you lost your spouse?  

I don’t want my kids to worry, they are so loving, and I know they are grieving too,…

I just took care of everything that I could, I was Dans caregiver, but it was just the last month that I know it was so very difficult for him to have me taking care of his every need.  It hurts me now to think that I may of hurt him, as far as the love we shared, for me to take care of his personal needs.  I don’t think I’m explaining it correctly,…I just am dealing with so very much, and I miss him beyond words…Thank you for letting me ramble on, maybe I’ll eventually make sense to myself too.  Theresa

[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , he died from complications with COVID and went quickly.

YOU ARE FINE dear friend and "ramble" all you want to!!!  💛

Remember, THEY ARE ALWAYS with us.

Luv,

Nicole  🤗🤗🤗  (Grief Forum)

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote: Has it been a long time since you lost your spouse?  

I don’t want my kids to worry, they are so loving, and I know they are grieving too,…

I just took care of everything that I could, I was Dans caregiver, but it was just the last month that I know it was so very difficult for him to have me taking care of his every need.  It hurts me now to think that I may of hurt him, as far as the love we shared, for me to take care of his personal needs.  I don’t think I’m explaining it correctly,…I just am dealing with so very much, and I miss him beyond words…Thank you for letting me ramble on, maybe I’ll eventually make sense to myself too.  Theresa ***]

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[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , how are you today?  💛

[TheresaF849375]

Sunshine here,…cool, but still nice.  Want to fib and say ok,…how are you my friend?

[SpringIsHereVA]

Lol Theresa @TheresaF849375 , too funny!!!

Me, feeling sorry for myself. The flu got me yesterday and NOT happy about it.  🙄

All WE can do is "keep" stepping my friend!!!  💛

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote: Sunshine here,…cool, but still nice.  Want to fib and say ok,…how are you my friend? ***] 

[SpringIsHereVA]

😴  Theresa @TheresaF849375 , I hope you get some sleep tonight my friend.

Some nights I am up ALL NIGHT!!!

Any plans for tomorrow?

Me, a 6am alarm to go see IF my mechanic will check my 2006 Hyundai Elantra "check engine light" CODE when they open at 7am. Lol, this light has kept me broke of late.

Anyway, I am ALWAYS here IF you need me.  💛

[TheresaF849375]

Hi, just sitting here in Dans recliner.  I decided I like sitting in his, vs mine.

The day was nice, but they seem so long.  
I, like you, don’t sleep well, so when I finally fall asleep, which is early morning., I try to stay in bed. As long as I can.

I’m not sure what I’ll do tomorrow.

I do have a few small boxes of things I’d like to donate to the  men’s shelter.  It’s things that over the winter Dan would sit and tell he keep or donate.  He’d lost a lot of weight, and some of the things he just didn’t want to wear anymore.

I haven’t touched any of his clothes that he wore day to day.  Just can’t do that.

well, I hope you have good luck with your car,….things like that are hard for us to deal with, use to the guys doing certain things.

Hope you have a good night 😴…rest…..how’s your daughter and kitty?????💔

[SpringIsHereVA]

You are doing GREAT Theresa @TheresaF849375 !!!  👍

Thanks for asking - daughter called to check on me. Miss her SO MUCH.  😭

Lol, Mister  🐈  hung out ALL DAY with me napping beside me, then dumped me tonight. I inherited him LAST May when the lady who was feeding him moved away. His humans had moved without him.  😤  He is an indoor/outdoor cat determined to do this HIS WAY. I had gone to the dumpster and mailbox tonight & he walked by me like he didnot know me. He is a trip!!! But GRATEFUL he came into my life.

Thanks, I am hoping it is something simple and they will be nice and fix it tomorrow. Light came on Saturday, then flu = lol, felt like WHAT NEXT???

I am here for you.  💛

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote: Hi, just sitting here in Dans recliner.  I decided I like sitting in his, vs mine.

The day was nice, but they seem so long.  
I, like you, don’t sleep well, so when I finally fall asleep, which is early morning., I try to stay in bed. As long as I can.

I’m not sure what I’ll do tomorrow.

I do have a few small boxes of things I’d like to donate to the  men’s shelter.  It’s things that over the winter Dan would sit and tell he keep or donate.  He’d lost a lot of weight, and some of the things he just didn’t want to wear anymore.

I haven’t touched any of his clothes that he wore day to day.  Just can’t do that.

well, I hope you have good luck with your car,….things like that are hard for us to deal with, use to the guys doing certain things.

Hope you have a good night 😴…rest…..how’s your daughter and kitty?????💔  ***]

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[SpringIsHereVA]

Theresa @TheresaF849375 , how are YOU today/tonight?  💛

[TheresaF849375]

Did you find out about your car?  Hope it was an easy fix, but sure weighs heavy on us for unexpected cost.

I took some cat food over to a lady that feeds feral cats.  She doesn’t have much herself, so I try to help.  I’m trying to get another friend to help trap them, at least get them fixed, to stop reproducing, and vaccinate them.  I told her I’d help with some of the cost, so it’ll give my heart some joy.

its beautiful here today, I went outside for a bit, but really wanted to be inside.  I’m in Michigan, so it’s spring, and pretty.

you have a good evening.  I’m kinda hungry, but don’t know what I’d like.  Thank you my friend….you have been so very good to my broken heart…

[SpringIsHereVA]

Mister  🐈   is a TNR (trap, neuter, release). I learn't this from a wonderful lady in a forum here that I exited from. Ms. Stretch @MsStretch had seen his EAR had been "nipped" off at end (I had posted a picture of my very handsome boy) = shows they have been fixed.  👍  She feeds two ferals, Willie Mae (mom  🐈)  and her son Giorgio  🐈.  I miss chatting with her, but that forum became toxic due to a member who feels he owns it and not AARP. Lol, learning to avoid toxic folks to maintain my sanity. Thank you for caring about ferals.  👍

Well, I have a 8am Car Appt on Wednesday and trying NOT to "worry". I am in Virginia in a very CUTE Studio Apt while I work on returning to Florida to be nearer to my only child/daughter. We BOTH had moved from Florida in 2015. But she HATED Virginia and returned in 2017. I fell in luv with the mountains, Spring & Autumn. Lol, they can keep Summer & Winter. Too hot & too cold. I am SO GRATEFUL the car made it up my hill this morning.  🙃

Thanks for CARING & yell whenever you need me dear friend.

SO PROUD OF YOU!!!  💛

And still feeling sorry for myself with flu. Been years since I got it as I get my yearly shot at age 67. Glad I am retired = been in bed ALL DAY.  🙄

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➡️[*** Theresa wrote Monday 4/28/25: Did you find out about your car?  Hope it was an easy fix, but sure weighs heavy on us for unexpected cost.

I took some cat food over to a lady that feeds feral cats.  She doesn’t have much herself, so I try to help.  I’m trying to get another friend to help trap them, at least get them fixed, to stop reproducing, and vaccinate them.  I told her I’d help with some of the cost, so it’ll give my heart some joy.

its beautiful here today, I went outside for a bit, but really wanted to be inside.  I’m in Michigan, so it’s spring, and pretty.

you have a good evening.  I’m kinda hungry, but don’t know what I’d like.  Thank you my friend….you have been so very good to my broken heart… ***]

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