Where do i find a counselor and friends who will put up with a bitter old man?
28 years ago, I gave up my fast growing career when my wife threatened to take my 3 kids and leave me. We moved back to our hometown, and she started her own business while I kept getting knocked further back down, that success ladder. I raised my kids mostly alone while working two jobs. In 2015, she tried to kill me while I was sleeping, and she lost her front teeth when I reacted to my attacker. Which made me a wife beater. Strange how there was no blood anywhere.
Three days later, I was served divorce papers, and she magically had a new pony farm with her female friend , "who had more money than she could ever spend unquote. My kids were instructed not to talk to me and haven't since, but they sure have nice, easy lives.
So no, I have not been able to forgive and move on. The bitterness remains, I have no friends, family is no help, I don't want to be bitter with my kids so i dont communicate with them either, I fear being around anyone that I will make them bitter too, people try to like me then run when they see the bitter guy underneath, I don't go to church because I don't want to forgive and forget, there has not been a single day for 10 years that I haven't thought about that day.
Writing helps, but no one is willing to help me.