My condolences on your recent loss. Jesus’ words at John 5:28, 29 strengthen and sustain us in times of sorrow. Death is an enemy that will soon be done away with under the Kingdom we pray for in the Lord’s prayer. May this hope comfort you knowing that God cannot lie. If you have questions and would like additional information, jw.org will provide the Bible’s answers.
I am Frank from Perth Amboy NJ. On May 5th I lost my beloved wife and best friend of 41 years after an 11 day sting in ICU. she past from a stomach infection that she could not over come. Apparently she had for some time and did not even know. She had not been feeling well in some time. Been to doctors with blood test etc. I do beleive her doctors failed her as they should have picked up on this infection long before it became critical. She was much sicker then she thought. I am devistated at the loss. We had plans to sell our large house and move into a smaller more mangeable house. Now I have the task of claning out a house they we lived in for over 38 years. I have to sell as I cannot be in this house with all the memories. It just drives me to tears every day being here. I wake up crying thinking about the lose of my great wife. She was special, careing and a devoted wife. I love her dearly and will allows miss her termendolusly. I spend most of my day in this house crying the lose of my wife. So I do understand where you are coming from with the lose of your husband. We both feel we can't move forward as our depated loved ones were our life. We went everywhere together. now we have to find the innere strength to move forward. good luck.
@jshaw521 Oh Annie! I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Be gentle with yourself. Grief is a roundabout journey and there is no one way to do it. Do what YOU need to do, not what anyone else says you "should" do and in your own time.
One thing that many people (including myself) have found helpful when grieving is to do something to memorialize their loved ones. Something that is significant to you or was to him. I created a scholarship in my Mom's memory at a local children's theater because she had served on the board. My sister contributed to a group that built a house for a lower income family in my niece's memory. Your reference to the hose being silent made me think maybe your husband liked gardening? Maybe you could plant a tree in his honor. There is no rush or pressure, but it's something to think about.
It might also be helpful for you to post in the Grief and Loss group here in the Online Community - CLICK HERE to find that group.
I am so very sorry for your lose. My heart goes out to you as I am in the same boat. I lost my beloved husband on May 2, 2018 and the pain is unbearable. I cannot complain about his doctor, because for 23 years he did erverything he could for my wonderful husband. He was always in a lot of pain because he only had one good disc left in his back and arthritis in his spine. His main health issue was COPD. He served 22 years in the military and did two tours in Vietnam and was exposed to agent orange. My hero received two purple hearts and three bronze stars for valor. Every time he got sick he would tell me he wasgoing to get better and be with me for a long time, but this last bout with pneumonia was too much for him to fight. The last year he was on oxygen 24/7 and a mobility scooter, but could only get out to make his doctors appointments. I did everything for him and he appreciated every little thing. We talked and joked and watched tv together. He was my life and I don't know how to go on withiout him. The days are long and dreary. We live in Oklahoma, but my husband was orignally from PA and I was born and raised in New Jersey. I lived in Succasunna. I pray that in time both of our hearts will begin to heal.
I am very sorry for your loss, Anne, and all the feeling that are associated with your loss. I remember the situation, all too well even though it has bee 12 years since my husband died. It is not easy.
Some days you just have to put one foot in front of the other and carry on even when you don't feel like it.
I kept a journal and at (10) years out, I burned it. If anybody had ever read it, they would have thought me mad - which I was at the time.
Time does help, inch at a time.
I also went to a Grief Group but sometimes it was just me and the Priest conducting the group. Other came and went as time went by.
i stayed close to others and I was also taking care of my Mom and that filled up a lot of (just) time and mind.
i cleaned too - music blaring, crying all the while. Had to do something during all those sleepless nights.
So try to fill up your time and when you think of him, think of the fun times, not the sick times. Those memories are yours to keep close to your heart.
Feel free to come here and post. Or someplace else - you are not alone but each person has to walk their own path through grief -
Life is but a journey of days - cherish the time we can share this journey with another for some length of time.