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I feel the exact same about my family and life.  I’m an outsider looking in now.  I Have no where to be. It was nice everyone came for the memorial however now their gone and I have no one to talk to.  Of course, everyone says call whenever if you need to talk however I have no idea what to talk about.  I’ve been in a brain fog nothing really seems to matter.


Grief is a very heavy thing and it takes a long time to come out of the fog. You'll be in it for a while, and i wish it didn't take so long. The "need to talk" is real, but it is also true that just being with other people can help somewhat, even if you feel like an 'outsider looking in'.  Do you tend to be more of an introvert or more of an extrovert? Is there any place where you can hang out without a lot of pressure to be cheerful, say, a church or temple, or a volunteer spot where you can bag groceries for a food pantry, say, just to get out of the house? Just a little bit of socializing. Or maybe just go see a funny movie in a theater: by yourself or with someone, a family member? so you can fill your brain with something besides missing her for two hours...

 

Some hospices welcome people into a bereavement group even if your wife wasn't involved in the hospice. At least folks there can relate to your isolation and sadness.

What do you think? What gives you some relief even if for only a short while

Jane

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I feel the exact same about my family and life.  I’m an outsider looking in now.  I Have no where to be. It was nice everyone came for the memorial however now their gone and I have no one to talk to.  Of course, everyone says call whenever if you need to talk however I have no idea what to talk about.  I’ve been in a brain fog nothing really seems to matter.

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I lost my husband 20 months ago to leukemia at age 56. It was devastating, it still is. I look at his photos, all with a big smile that lit up a room, and still can't believe he's actually not here anymore!
After my husband died I attended Griefshare meetings at a church close to my home. The sharing with others who had lost loved ones like me helped me to put my loss into perspective. I still miss him every single day, I have my moments when I feel all alone and I'm reminded God walks with me every minute of the day.
Griefshare has meetings all over the US, they're very inexpensive and you can attend as many meetings as you need to after the initial fee. I've kept in touch with some of the ladies I met at the Griefshare meetings. It also doesn't matter how long ago your loss was, if you never come to terms with your grief it will continue to be a burden.
I realize grief is something we must continue to live with, we absorb it, make adjustments and accept a new normal.
If you "google " Griefshare, you will find meetings at a church close to you. Hopefully you will reach out and find healing for yourself, you deserve that. I will always have an ache in my heart for my husband, for what could have been. God knew best and I accept His Will for my life.

Thank you for sharing your story, the information about Griefshare, and your faith as well. Somehow, grief teaches us all deep lessons, even though we would never wish the pain of grief on anyone including ourselves.

 

i found this article on the web and felt it is wise enough to share: https://www.thriveglobal.com/stories/10668-the-one-thing-no-one-ever-says-about-grieving?utm_source=...

 

Take care,

Jane

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I lost my husband 20 months ago to leukemia at age 56. It was devastating, it still is. I look at his photos, all with a big smile that lit up a room, and still can't believe he's actually not here anymore!
After my husband died I attended Griefshare meetings at a church close to my home. The sharing with others who had lost loved ones like me helped me to put my loss into perspective. I still miss him every single day, I have my moments when I feel all alone and I'm reminded God walks with me every minute of the day.
Griefshare has meetings all over the US, they're very inexpensive and you can attend as many meetings as you need to after the initial fee. I've kept in touch with some of the ladies I met at the Griefshare meetings. It also doesn't matter how long ago your loss was, if you never come to terms with your grief it will continue to be a burden.
I realize grief is something we must continue to live with, we absorb it, make adjustments and accept a new normal.
If you "google " Griefshare, you will find meetings at a church close to you. Hopefully you will reach out and find healing for yourself, you deserve that. I will always have an ache in my heart for my husband, for what could have been. God knew best and I accept His Will for my life.
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I lost my husband to early onset Alzheimer's AND posterior cortical atrophy (aka, Benson's Disease) 6 years ago. He was diagnosed at age 56. He was the love of my life and I was the light of his. We married when I was 33 and he was 40 - the first marriage for both of us. We were "waiting for the perfect match". 

He was brilliant. A medical degree and a computer degree. Worked in a hospital and big corporations, traveling often. We loved music - he had a wonderful voice. He was a marathon runner and we were up at 6 am every weekend for a 10k. Most days he ran 6 miles. 

We always held hands. I remember him reaching out for mine every time we crossed a road or a parking lot. He always opened the car door for me (I never asked or expected him to.) Every night we had dinner with candles and music at an actual dining room table. We laughed so hard because we were the same. 

He was an Adonis look-alike. Thick, dark hair all the women couldn't help but touch. A model's face with a Warren Beatty dimple in his chin. And those clear BLUE eyes! He could flash a smile on command that would drive you insane with envy. 

Everyone loved my husband. He was so highly valued by the companies he worked for, so highly respected by all our friends. 

Now "I'm learning to live half a life".

He is at this moment lying in a hospital bed in our living room. Totally cared for in every way by 24/7 caregivers. I sleep alone. I cry every day. Especially when I see couples young and old holding hands at the mall or crossing the street. All our Christmas traditions blind me when I remember them. 

He is still the most brilliant, beautiful man I know - and ever will. I've stood by him, and he takes my breath away. 

(To all you out there grieving the "lost" of a loved one, Anticipatory Death is real; and it precedes the actual loss, which must be endured anew. I have yet to accept counseling or medications, but it can feel like you are losing your mind. The grief is indescribable to those not experiencing it. Every day my beloved dies. And so goes my soul.)

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           I also lost my husband a year ago to a 100% service connected condition.  He was 65 and served during the Viet Nam war.  I was married to him for 32 years and I wear his wedding ring next to mine.   It is overwhelming emotionally, but as you are aware, it gets better as time goes on.  If you are not aware, there is a FB group for spouses whose husbands have or passed away from conditions caused by Agent Orange and/or served during the Viet Nam war.  God Bless.

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I urge anyone who is suffering from the loss of their spouse or any other loved one to get grief counseling. I lost my husband in 2013 after a 2 year battle with cancer, and I was totally devastated.  I found a bereavement counseling group, and it started me on a road to healing. I still miss him every day and still cry over my loss, but now I can function much better. We were encouraged to keep in touch with the group, and have reached out to others. The people I met through counseling have become good friends, and they truly do understand. It takes time, but you will get through the all-consuming grief you first experience. May you find peace.

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@ttenpenny53 wrote:

WOW,  I know how everyone feels, I lost my Mom in 2012 she was 83 and I lost my Husband in 2014 he was only 64 we were married go 29 years. He had leukemia that he got from Agent Orange during the Vietnam War.   These two loses are very hard for me more so this time of year.  I try and be happy.  I have no to turn anymore.  Yes I have children and Grandchildren, but it's not the same.   I keep waiting for him to walk in the room and tell me everything will be okay. 


Tisia, bless you for sharing your story. Darn Agent Orange and the vietnam war. I'm glad you had 29 years and i wish you had so many  more years of joy. i hope you have a sense of his loving presence which certainly lives in your memories. i hope you can get through the Christmas season and wait for Spring with a bit more hope, a bit more joy.

 

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@ba9872 wrote:

I lost my husband 10 years ago and it still is painful. It has lessened over time.

We were married 44 years. Only someone who has been through this can understand . Your children  can't, even though they say they do. I still feel so alone 

even with having  a part time job. It's there when I come home. I have sought help and all I have done is talk and the Doctor listened  ,and took my money. I don't feel any better. I have found to go walking in the fresh air is as good as anything else you can do. The Holidays bring too many memories. 


Thank you for sharing your experience. Your pain after 10 years shows just how hard it can be to lose a spouse. I was talking with a client (I am a therapist) the other day who said it feels like part of his body was amputated. Nothing feels right, nothing feels natural. He lost his wife 2 years ago. Here you are 10 years later.

 

I'm glad you have a part time job. I hope there are other activities that bring you joy even with the persistant sense of loss. I am a nut for crochet and knitting. I have way too much yarn. But it brings me joy, so there. What brings you joy? Your dog or cat?  Do you scrapbook or garden?  I hope there is something. You deserve joy.

 

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